Thought sketches

Step one: Engage

Step two: Match Resonance

Step three: Movement

Step four: Walking the Precipice

Step five: Observation and Feedback

Step six: Refinement

Step seven: Repetition

"Clearing the cobwebs"
Was the euphoria a product of the fact that the darkness had been left untouched for so long? Or was it simply the result of blowing away a set of doors?

There are serious blocks now. New blocks.
New doors to bigger rooms.

Infinity has no boundaries. But you have many.

The key to finding the euphoria is to neutralize the desire for it. Simply practice, do the work.

It is the rational sense of separation that blocks it. It is identity. It is Self. Those things are necessary parts of life in this realm -- preservation of self as body, as mind, as history -- but it is not necessary to preserve it at all times. We have the power, the ability, to step outside into a new perception. Step to the right (of an arbitrary, metaphorical bookmark in thought) and experience existence as an insignificant part of something utterly unfathomably complex and rich and perfect. That is the essence of spiritual thought patterns.

Rational centers are firing up, checking spelling, checking grammar, keeping the words clear, English, thoughtful, lucid. But the secret is in the realm of imagination, creativity, emotion, intuition, the place where words fail. Where technical details are simply detail. Communication without sound, without words, without sight or boundary, that is where your euphoria lies. In the deep untroubled land of no mistakes, they are all fortuitous, they do not exist, this world does not exist, these fingers are not real and they are simply metaphor for a deeper experience, these words are not words but shapes and colors.

Visual centers like to engage but when they do, the memory does not keep up. We can only speak as individuals, to individual experience and ask each other if it seems to resonate through translation of words of thought into common reality. What is objectivity filtered through two sets of subjective beings? Except that we are pieces of the same whole, and though our experience may be very different from an "inside-another-head" perspective (and should be, if we are separate appendages of a vast consciousness) they are connected and complete and the same from farther back. Describing a molecule of water is not to describe a stream, but they are the same substance. They are not the experience, but they are the same substance.

The rational side (speaking as if they were separate! bookmarks, always) enjoys the work. Enjoys the criticism and the finding of fault. The refinement of purpose, of message, of boundaries, of time, of its passage and its particular point. Rational likes the Point (goal-focused where the rules are clear and unchanging). But Creative likes the Infinite (flexibility under changing conditions). Pistons driving the engine. One without the other does not perform. Both are necessary for interaction. And though interaction is not necessary for survival, in the course of everyday living, it is unavoidable and undesirable to avoid.

Can I step to the right or the left if I have not found my center? Today I will step to the right of right and allow that movement to define my center. Ah! There it is.